Welcome to Every Step, Another Story. My name is Jess, and I am full of life, happiness and aspirations. Sadly, these qualities were more recently disguised with weakness, isolation and despair due to a diagnosis of Anorexia Nervosa. However, after several months in treatment, I am determined to use this blog to show that positivity can always be created from negative situations.
So, going back 13 years…… I made a friend who wanted to lose weight and I helped her. We went on walks, ate light lunches and were generally ‘healthy.’ I basically went on a diet by mistake and of course lost weight when I didn’t need too. As a result people around me were worried. But I felt the happiest I had ever felt.
“I’m going to transform myself and come home looking like a completely different person – beautiful, tan and in control of my life”. This was the thought that I had sitting in my grandmother’s living room on a sunny day in June.
This is just a brief testimony of how I've benefited from the support of Syeda over the last few years. Initially I attended the Support Group. This was at a time when I was just coming to terms with the idea that I might have an eating disorder and needed a space to talk without feeling judged. I felt understood by the people I met there. The facilitators at the time gave me strong role models of what recovery looked like. I also used the group to keep me motivated as I moved further into recovery from anorexia.
When I arrived at the University of Sheffield I had just been diagnosed with anorexia. I had not discussed it with anyone at this point except for the GP who diagnosed me. It is only looking back on it that I realise how confused I felt. Part of me was desperate to talk about it to someone. However, I must admit that part of me was reluctant to seek treatment.
One of the services that we offer at SYEDA is guided self-help. Service users work one to one with a therapist to work through a series of exercises that help the service user to think about and implement changes.
Self esteem plays a role in almost everything you do. People with high self esteem do better in school and find it easier to make friends. They tend to have better relationships with peers and adults, feel happier, find it easier to deal with mistake, disappointments, an failures, and are more likely to stick with something until they succeed.
It is no fun to worry all the time about how much you weigh, how much you eat, or whether you are thin. Here are some things you can do to be healthy and fit, have fun, and concentrate on who you are rather than how you look.